Feels damn good to be a Bulldog tonight.

The one thing in school that stresses me out more then anything-icebreakers. Don’t teachers realize hours much students hate them? Ugh.

In twenty-two years, I’ve done two extraordinary acts. Both of which have occurred in the past year. First would be taking care of my grandmother. I had the great honor to help her end her days on earth, to go where she had longed. I would apply lotion to her dry arms and legs, help her choose her outfits and change into them, choose her meals, make her feel comfortable, tell her how amazingly dear she was to me. That. Me giving myself to her may seem like I helped her but she was the one who taught me to be strong and courageous and know what true love is. As I watched her die a cold, early December morning, a part of me died too. Not the newly found strong self, but the child in me. It was time that I let go of being fearful and and live new things. Which leads me to my second amazing act…

Ferris! 

Today was my first day of classes and it was wonderful. I have discovered who I am and I know that I can and will do great things. Knowing what I have done in the past, I now know that I can do this- move two hours away, not know a soul, share a very small suite with three other girls, rock my classes, and talk to people I would have been to scared to talk to before. And i’m loving every second of it.

and I just had a very long, amazing talk. We talked about our majors, where we’ve come from, our interest, tips to getting by in classes. Yupp- this is going to be a very amazing semester. I just know it.

In this life I’ve been given, I could be angry over the mistakes, the goodbyes, the breakups, the deaths. But when I look around, I’m surrounded by so many beautiful souls who are all wonderfully unique. They shower me with encouragement and belief that gives me the strength to keep going. Am I going on this journey for myself? Absolutely. But damn it- I’m going to make you guys proud! I’m giving this my all and the industry better watch out because I’m about to be some kind of force! =)

was yesterday.

Today is my first whole day at Ferris. And I’m loving it! Spent the day eating in the cafeteria, walked to the campus, found where my classes are, bought my books. 

One major disappointments- 1) The roommates didn’t seem too keen on having a new suitemate. Seems to me that they are warming up to me. Hopefully.